Thursday, June 2, 2016

feeling nervous

This is what I deal with when I sit down to use 
the computer. Peek-a-boo, Thelma!

After last Friday's personal training session, I only have seven sessions left.  That makes me really nervous.  Although I've proven that I can do this, I feel I still need the accountability.  Sure, I do the prescribed exercise routine on the days I'm supposed to do it, but it's really hard to make myself get out there and do it. Several times, the only thing that got me outside to do it was knowing that I'd be seeing Mark soon. That, and I have this notion that he will somehow know if I don't do it.  Not only because he can tell by what I can accomplish at the studio, but because I feel like he just somehow KNOWS.  Like he's got a sixth sense or something. So, that keeps me going.

I'm thinking of buying more sessions and going only once per week.  That would give me the opportunity to do most of it on my own, while still being accountable and having someone to help me along.  Plus, I wouldn't have to spend as much money and I'd get another three months out of it.

What have I accomplished so far?
  • I can run sprints.  In the backyard, I run from the patio to the barn, which is about 30 yards.  On the treadmill, I can do 6.5 mph for 45 seconds and then two more sprints at the same speed for 30 seconds. Doesn't sound like much, but I've never been able to do that before. I've discovered that I like running.  I think it appeals to the part of me that wants instant gratification.
  • I still can't do a full pushup, but I can do at least 15 of them at once and can get about halfway down to the floor. Thinking back to day one, I struggled mightily with doing just three and my arms barely bended.
  • I've lost 12 pounds:  I was 229 when I started seeing Mark and now I'm 217.
  • I've lost about an inch and a half off my waist.
  • I've discovered I actually don't hate exercise.  I hate squat jumps and jumping jacks, but I don't hate exercise in general.
  • I can plank for 1:10.  I haven't been able to get beyond that, but I'm sure I will. Practice makes perfect!
I have only one appointment this week due to the holiday, so I'll be doing four sessions at home and only one with Mark.  I guess this is a good test to see if I can keep up with it. Considering I exercised this weekend--a weekend with two 90+ degree days--I'd say it's a safe bet that I can do it.  (Yes, it was completely disgusting outside! And yes, I did it in the morning before it got really hot outside.) The hardest part is getting up off the couch. 


  1. In the past 6 months, I have gone from being able to run only 30 seconds at a time, to running a full 3 minutes - 500 metres (.3 miles), then dropping back to a walk for one minute, then running the rest of that kilometre(.62miles). I've gone from running at 7 to running at 10.

    If you are enjoying the running, maybe do a google for couch to 5k, which is a program that aims to take you from the couch to running a 5k within 9 weeks. I'm kinda sorta doing my own - slower - version of it. :)

    I'm still on the fence about running. I am not sure that I love it. I feel strong when I do it, and I love that. I play music when I do it, and I love that. I keep making new personal bests, and I love that. I enjoy it more on the treadmill than I do out in the world.

    I've lost over 33 pounds. I've gained so much health. I'm eating 300% better than I ever have in my lifetime, and I actually choose my protein shake over a hamburger regularly, now. The other half grabs the hamburger on the way home from our weekend walks, I just make my shake when we get home.

    The more I exercise, the less I want to put bad fuel into my body.

    What has worked for me the most is to figure out the optimum time for exercise - it happens to be morning for me despite the fact I am not a morning person, but if I get it out of the way sometime between 10:30 - midday I can have my protein shake for lunch and enjoy the happy endorphins all afternoon and evening.

    I'm in an exercise group on Facebook - that is a long story which I won't get into here, happy to tell it by email though - but if you think a group like that might help you, shoot me an email and I will send you a link to it. We have regular challenges where we set goals and then post each time we do a workout, to keep ourselves accountable. ;)

    I'm super glad to hear you are enjoying what you are doing.. :) And I think yes to the once a week sessions.

    1. Great job! So much to be proud of.

      I get what you mean about the running. I think it appeals to me because it gets me "somewhere", fast, whether it's on the treadmill or to the barn and back. I'm not the most patient person, which is why grinding it out with the trainer and not seeing the scale move often is frustrating to me. But it's a slow process, and I have to accept that.